sleep with all the lights on, you're not so happy, you're not so secure. you're dying to look cute in your blue jeans, but you're plastic just like everyone. you're just like everyone...

just one wish to be able to see the world like others do. to be able to strip away my beliefs, morals and social discomforts and just have fun. not to have to worry that i may seem to be standing by myself. to not get the feelings from other people that i don't really belong there. maybe i'm just not use to that type of scene. but do i want to become desensitised to it? i should just accept its not my type of thing and smile, i don't have to fit in, it's that we are all different that makes us special. but if i honestly believed that was a good thing, i would not have started this post to begin with. acceptance and appreciation, you can never have appreciation without acceptance. just doesn't work... or maybe it does and i can only see one side of the looking glass.
maybe i'll just eat this rainbow candy and think about it tomorrow...

p.s. thank you to anon. who commented on my last post. i'm thankful that a different opinion is shown on this blog. variety is good for you. some say its the spice of life even. but i think familiarity is comforting. but thats just me. =)

we're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin. so get out your fake eyelashes, and fake i.d's and real disasters ensue. it's cool to take these chances, it's cool to fake romances and grow up fast...
(The Swiss Army Romance - Dashboard Confessional)