good evening children of the revolution...
i wasn't meant to work today... i covered a four hour shift for someone... i worked seven and a half hours today. *blank stare*... so much for catching up on chemistry on the long weekend... i didn't do anything worth doing this weekend... what a completely waste...
i did revamp the site template though, gave it a new look, i got a bit sick of the dots, its still pretty basic, but it doesn't really need to be amazing so i'm happy with it. i'm still not sure whether i want people i know to read it... the whole content of this blog is negative... but then why bother putting it on the net... maybe its the thought that i can say that i was always open for people to get to know me even if i didn't want them too. so i can feel like i'm sharing without having to deal with the confronting/negative feedback. sometimes its just too hard to understand why i do things. it angers me, because if i don't know why i did something then who can anyone else? or maybe i just say i don't know as a smoke screen... self analysis is crap...
i should probally start perking up these posts though, they've been lacking some good ol' optimism...

but who wants to read that crap anyway...

and i'm still a cigarette softly smoking on the edge of a metal ashtray, i begged this place to let me burn, and it whispered, "burn away"...