good evening everyone, it rained today. it put me in a slightly melancholic mood. usually rain makes me feel a little brighter inside. but not today. maybe it wasn't the rain that made me feel down. maybe i just need to find a way to get happy and be happy and not worry about whether i'm feeling the right thing at the right time or if i'm smiling enough even if its not real. maybe i should stop smiling when its not real... but i don't even want to be another sullen face in the crowd. gosh i'm undecisive. well have a merry monday.

review my wishes, for fair weather, 'cause i know if the clouds with rains or snows, you won't be there. how weak is that? wish i was worth it, to you...