i was reading some of my old blogs today. its sad, nothing has changed. this time last year i re-introduced myself and said that it wouldn't be the same as before. but it was. i complained of a nameless nothing thats still there, school is still a nightmare where i don't have a place of my own. fuck. fuck. I hate it. fuck. whay am i so incapable of change? why does time go so fast? I hate it. fuck. and in the words of the August 30th blog "i hate this, i hate you, it's nothing personal..."

listen i'm fine now, listen i'm fine now, listen i'm fine now, i don't want to talk right now, thank you for your concern...

*cries*